The Day When I Was Breathless

 (it was my assignment in Introduction to Literature)

It was late December, 2005. It was very beautiful moment because it just different with the usual month. It was spring in the December, there were flowers bloomed and giant green trees were wobbled by the heavy wind, but still beautiful. The windy weather made some unique feelings and the atmosphere covered the whole feeling which I felt at that time.

I was in my second grade of my Junior High School. Luckily, I was in a good class, I got kind friends and comfortable classroom which is supported me to study comfortably. Everything was okay, my achievement was good, my friendship was very well, my teachers were care so much, but it was felt not complete. Suddenly, in my convenient condition, something happened to my heart. There was total eclipse in my heart. There was something teased my life.

It was my silly experience, but the wonderful one. I never had expected that I would have been very amazing. One chance that made me flew. That day, the fabulous day, all of students got task to pick some flowers for our teachers’ funeral. I didn’t know where to go, how could I get those flowers? My friends ran to their home, but I didn’t because my house was far from there. I was in terrible confusion. Unexpectedly, a boy with a worn out uniform came to me. He asked me to follow him, with unfriendly voice. I felt so annoyed with this guy. Absolutely, he was my rival in class, the only one who always messed up my day in class. He walked to his village which full of flowers, so we could pick it so easily. Along the journey to the village, it was a silence journey without words. I didn’t know what he felt at that time, but I was worried about myself. I was going to think what kind of guy he is, he kept me all along the trip. In the dusty road. Even he looked so careless of me, I could feel his courageous of keeping me. It was felt so strange, so weird, but I liked it.

We got the flowers, after we have hunted it in the village yard. Both of us took a rest under a big tree. The trees bloomed the yellow flowers which were brought away by the breezes. We were lying in the ground like an old leaves and smelling the flowers fragrance. I still didn’t know what his feeling at that time and I was getting more worried about myself. But, I decided to ignore it and continued to enjoy the amazing situation. That was a single complete package in a memorable place where we had been going together.

In our way back to school, he made an awkward conversation but he failed because I didn’t respond it. The situation was getting ungainly. I knew that actually he was a bashful boy, he seldom had a conversation with me. How stubborn I am, I tried hard to drive away all kinds of feeling, but I couldn’t. So, I prefer to ignore him.

That day passed. I thought everything was normal. I could continue my days like the ordinary day. But, I was wrong, I was going to act ashamedly if I met him. I didn’t know what was going on myself. Eventually, I had to realize that I had feeling to him, my first one.

The day after that day, he always fulfilled my head, he completely covered my life. I was really remembering his clothes. It was so real. The smell, the atmosphere, it was so real. I thought that the world was mine. All buildings are mine, all cars are mine, all trees are mine, and the air is only mine. I never had a dream come true, till the day I was with him. That day, very beautiful spring when I was younger, I was got special thing. Of course, Iwas in love in the term of the real feeling. That was unexpected, I just saw him in my imagination. He was not handsome, he was an ordinary guy for other people, but not for me. He was so perfect, with his all behavior.  His smile was charming and his speech was witch me up. Everything he did and what he said beautify my day. He made me breathtaking. It was the day when I’m being my real me. We had walking along the dusty road to get some flowers. This all make me breathless for the first time.

Contrastly to my feeling, I still didn’t know how about him. He was mysterious, and always like that. My relationship with him still like an ordinary, we seldom to had conversation, just an awkward sight when we met. It was okay, because we still a younger. We had not to show our feeling.

Sometimes, I wish I had never left.

Seorang Pemimpin Yang Takut Pada Allah

UMAR BIN ABDUL AZIZ

Tangisan Seorang Pemimpin Yang Takut Pada Allah

UMAR bin ABDUL AZIZ, Dia seorang hafizh, mujtahid, sangat mendalam ilmunya, zuhud, ahli ibadah dan sosok pemimpin kaum Muslimin yang sejati. Dia juga disebut Abu Hafsh, dari suku Quraisy,Bani Umayyah.

Istrinya, Fathimah pernah berkata, “ Dikalangan kaum laki-laki memang ada yang shalat dan puasanya lebih banyak dari Umar. Tetapi aku tidak melihat seorangpun yang lebih banyak ketakutannya kepada Allah daripada Umar, jika masuk rumah ia langsung menuju tempat shalatnya, bersimpuh dan menangis sambil berdoa kepada Alloh hingga tertidur. Kemudian dia bangun dan berbuat seperti itu sepanjang malam.”

Takkala menyampaikan khutbah terakhirnya, Umar bin Abdul Aziz naik keatas mimbar, memuji Alloh, lalu berkata, “ Sesungguhnya ditanganmu kini tergenggam harta orang-orang yang binasa. Orang-orang yang hidup pada generasi mendatang akan meninggalkannya, seperti yang telah dilakukan oleh generasi yang terdahulu. Tidakkah kamu ketahui bahwa siang dan malam kamu sekalian mengarak jasad yang siap menghadap Allah, lalu kamu membujurkannya di dalam rekahan bumi, tanpa tikar tanpa bantal, lalu kamu menimbunnya dalam kegelapan bumi ?. Jasad itu telah meninggalkan harta dan kekasih-kekasihnya. Dia terbujur dikolong bumi, siap menghadap hisab. Dia tak mampu berbuat apa-apa menghadapi keadaan sekitarnya dan tidak lagi membutuhkan semua yang ditinggalkannnya. Demi Allah, kusampaikanhal ini kepadamu sekalian, karena aku tidak tahu apa yang terbatik didalam hati seorang seperti yang kuketahui pada diriku sendiri “

Selanjutnya Umar bin Abdul Aziz menarik ujung bajunya, menyeka air mata, lalu turun dari mimbar. Sejak itu dia tidak keluar rumah lagi kecuali setelah jasadnya sudah membeku.

Diriwayatkan dari Abdus-Salam, mantan budak Maslamah bin Abdul Malik, dia berkata: “ Umar bin Abdul Aziz pernah menangis, melihat ia menangis, istrinya dan semua anggota keluarganya pun ikut menangis, padahal mereka tidak tahu persis apa pasalnya mereka ikut-ikutan menangis”.

Setelah suasana reda, Fathimah, istrinya bertanya: “Demi ayahku sebagai jaminan, wahai Amirul Mukminin, apa yang membuat engkau menangis? “ .Umar bin Abdul aziz menjawab, “ Wahai fathimah, aku ingat akan persimpangan jalan manusia takkala berada di hadapan Alloh, bagaimana sebagian diantara mereka berada di sorga dan sebagian lain berada di neraka.